Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance

Without You Here - Goo Goo Dolls

Cant Let It Go - Goo Goo Dolls

hahha Wtf.!? DAM cute!!!

bitch!

Lost in love

Hmm.. Haih Been dam down these few days. And now i'm sick. Headache. Maybe got fever. Think not. This morning wake up, whole body was aching. Aahh. Feel whole body dam tired and exhausted dam sick. -_-. This morning went college, really felt really bad. So went for bio class and i asked my fren wat is the optimum temperature for a healthy person. He said 37 degrees. So ok. I walked over to the drawer and took out a thermometer. LAB thermometer. U noe the one use to Put INSIDE a CHEMICAL. Yes the yellow shit. Nono, i didnt put it under my tongue. I put it under my arm pit =D. Haha. So came out, i'm fine. Then put back the thermometer without washing it :P. Yes i noe its disgusting. hahaha. But was too really sick and was trying to move around wifout teachheer noticing what i'm doing. But y am i feeling so dead sick. Haih.

Classes over at 1. Then called weng kit. Ask him lets go yam cha. So went ss2. yam cha cyber and all. Aih. Went kit starting to play dota starting to become a cyber dude. WTF?!. but haih. At least hes here when i'm emoing. when i'm down.

Tomorrow got maths test. Integration. Haih. HAte this chapter. I'll do anything topic of maths but differentiation and integration. I hate them. Sux. Somemore still feeling sick now. Argh!. Body still aching. Frens in college keep asking me "Oii Donovan wat the hell did u do last night?" then start showing me this really yam yam ham ham sap sap face. hahah. Haih.

Nvr msg her these few days. She nvr msg me these few days. Guess she really moved on. It was a sudden, everything becomes so cold. Wats happenning. Wat happenned? haih. been really not myself these few days. I miss her so much. But wasnt sure to msg her. I'm just disturbing her. If shes moved on, its useless for me to talk to her. She replys me coldly. Short. nuthing she could say. Nuthing i could think off. If everything just would have went back to normal. My phone credits. The digi. I send 15 bucks to her. Thought i wont be using digi anymore. haih.So much to say but nuthing seems to be coming out. Not sure. really not sure. Blank now. Listening to Disenchanted - My chemical Romance. and Please do download The River - Good charlotte. Its a nice song. Cuz erm not only the band is good. But Matt shadows from my favourite band Avenged Sevenfold and Snynester Gates Their lead Guitarist is playing part of the song too :P....hehe. They rock.

haih...i should be in maison now. Argh.Johan ask me go clubbing. So ngam today i dam sick. somemore got test tmr. Fuck lahhh.. Y do bad things always happen to me. If not i would be in da club now. Argh. Rums KL rite now live got some dancing performances. Live on tv. I should be there also>.<. Johan asked me go rums. Then dunno y change to maison. And now i noe y. But it doesnt matter cuz, I cant go!. aah!. Fuck this shit.

I dont love u - My chemical romance.

Dam emoing with this song this few days. Haih. Guess its really the end. Dunno what to say. Should have done something, but i've done it enough. hmm. yea. Thats all now. Nuthing to say. Yea.

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Only One - Yellowcard

Been a tiring week. Very confused week. Until now i still don't know wat happen to me the last week since i last updated this blog. I don't know wat happened. Not sure.

Well last night, went out with fuckin kit. Was feeling rather down the whole week. Keep calling him to come out but he was busy cleaning his house. Renovating. so yesterday went out with him. Its good to have ur frens there. But still everybody is missing now. Wait till the end of the year when everybody comes back for vacation. Looking forward to it. Super drinking session.

So 1st we went cineleisure to watch spiderman 3. Wasnt that good as i was expecting. But still not bad. Some parts are really funny. Some parts emo sial. Anyway, I wanna be the black spiderman. Hes friggin cool. Dam yeng. All the gurls Go WillDdd.



Then after movie went Alimaju to yam cha a while. talking about some stuff. Then after that weng kit say wanna go cyber. I'm like Dude, Ure not a cyber dude!. The last time i went cyber with weng kit was in form 4. Where iw as in cyber 24 hours almost every friggin day. Was training up for the WCG. Pity him had to teman me. Playing there, then hes sleeping on the couch. >.<. So anyway We went rawang, Which is quite far actually. Maybe cuz the 1st time. But its far. haha. I thought rawang is in ipoh or in perak or watever-.-. or maybe johor. Cuz we went through the ipoh highway and saw this overbridge bridge which og fast food restaurant there. Then i'm thinking. Eh...this is the bridge i pass through when i go johor wif my family!. hahah But anyway rawang is still in selangor:P. So yea went there Cyber. Then after dat went mamak Yam cha. talk about lots of stuff. Talk about, Wat if weng kit and nocolo become super heroes. like weng kit is spiderman and nicola wonderwoman. It 'll be something like this.

His belly would be rreally big sticking out from the spiderman costume.haha.
then we playing cho tai tee. Then play until 2.30 a.m -.-. Told weng kit had to go home d. its getting late and my eyes are dam tired. So yea.then reach home at 3.00. hahah but had a good night. my buddies and brothers.


Me , ming jin , Weng kit.


Me and Weng Kit.

Talked to weng kit. Quite a stuff he said. Quite alot of stuff i was trying to figure out. and i'm not sure wats going on.shes moving on.Lawlz. He just said relllaxxxxx Take it slow and let the good times roll. So yea. Annndd this is a good song to emo with.


Only One - Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't,
I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only,
my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only,
my only one

Friday

Ok. Just woke up. Suddenly decided to blog. No pictures for yesterday =/ slept at 3 this morning. Should i say came back at 3. anyway lets start off friday morning class. Maths. Aahh. Frustrating. I need to get the textbook. Then physics. Hmm. Didnt listen to what mr.ayeman was teaching. I was finishing up the experiment report. Haih. Feel so useless and stupid now. Hmm.


Then after that i went ac in the afternoon after my class. Was waiting for kevin and benji and johan. But johan i think he went for prayers. Couldnt call them actually. Both my phones battery were dead. Lawlz. Feel dam dam dam dam so lost . Carrying two phones. Look so yeng but, Haih no battery. So oh well. Was thinking should i call her? should i see her. shes having her break during dat time. Was scared to see her. Scared. Scared i couldnt hold myself. Scared she don't wanna see me. Scared i'll miss her alot. So kept thinking if i should call her until, her break was over. then aahh...shit. Think too long. Went back at 4.30.


Went home sleep a while. Then 9.00 went out fetch kevin and off to ac. Theres foosball tournament. So went and see the pros play. I feel so..so....such a big fat loser. -_- then come to think about it. these people sure no life wan. Everyday foos non stop until geng. Then again kinda feel proud :].i have lifeee. then went down makan makan. then went back upstairs.


She msged me, ask me where am i and all. She was in taylors college Hall. It was taylors Night. Then she say she might be going clubbing after that. And a dude say shes his responsibility. lawlz. Go clubbing. He might get really tipsy and theres road block. Its dangerous. So i offered her a ride. Offered if theres anything she could call me. I'll fetch her home. So yea i did. Saw her. Didnt dare to look at her for long. Scared that i might miss her too much. But shes moving on now, Shes letting it go. So it doesnt matter. I'll just keep how i feel to myself. so yea shes safe and sound. And i'm glad. Well at least she had lots of fun there, i'm pretty sure. Dancing and all. After all the stress shes been having, one night to have fun and relax. Thats good. :) . So then went back to ac. it was 12 already. And where teh fuck is Vincent. We came all the way here to drink wif him and now hes late. haha

Then a while later he came, and chill a while up stairs and off to drinking session. We didnt have liquor tho. kinda dumb tho. We have money to buy 4 buckets of beer and theres 5 of us but dont have money to buy liquor bottle -.- I noe a place in hartamas sell cheap liquors-_-. but oh well beer will do. Gassy drink. Each bucket 6 tiger beers. 5 of us. We're drinking as tho we're drinking water. Then a few kakis came in brought chivas =D. but i didnt drink that. I'm driving =D. Aku ni citizen baik. Ku tak drink and drive. Then it started to rain dam heavy. I was all wet. Kevin and me-_- cuz we were sitting a lil bit outside. Benji really wanna get drunk during dat night. Keep shoving me with drinks. Downing every dam bottle. He drank until he loss lil bit of his balance. haha dam funny but hes not drunk yet tho. Just tipsy. And kevin, he drink until he cant hold his ciggrate >.<. Oh then, the whole day in AC, from afternoon i was there then later at night i came until i was drinking downstairs, until i left. MTV is trying to kill me and kevin-_- Keep playing our emo songs. Haha. Funny was in the afternoon, MTV was playing The Kill - 30 seconds to mars. Then Kevin say this is now his top emo song. Then i asked how about the It ends tonight - All american Rejects. Also his emo song but not top. So then after "The Kill" song. They played It ends tonight -.- then we looked at each other and laugh.haha.emo sial. Emo lah ni...

So basically i had 8 hours of sleep -_-. Not enough. My eyes still tired. shes in taylors now. Doing her orphanage thing. Haha...playing puppets and all. haha. Coolez. ok nvm i shall post 1 picture here. My favourite picture.

Two Steps Behind - Def Lepard

Quite lucky day in college actually. Bio class dismissed early. 11 o clock instead 12. Teacher said he got nuthing to teach already. tmr i'm gonna have bio test. So class dismissed early. So basically had break from 11. to 2. Thats 2 hours rite?. Or is it three. Or class dismissed at 10.30-_-. Erm anyway had a really long break. So went down to cafeteria to eat. Maggi goreng and Roti bakar. =/. Not a very nutricious food. This is wat u get in Segi. Sigh. moving on. Then some group of dudes came up to us and gave us this form. Where we fill in the particulars a few questionaires. Something like Are u a Rebel? How many times u lie to ur parents? etc etc. But wat the heck, u get a free file =D. So yea anything free to me its good.


After that went summit, wanted to watch movie But didnt have time cuz the movie will end at 2.30 and 2.00 is my maths class. Cant afford to skip maths class now. Teaching integration. Shitznezz. So went arcade instead. Went and play daytona. Rawr. i merejuking there. Nadzmi played cheat. he bangs people-.- Its not just once. ITS ALOT of times. 4 games in a row-.- was really pissed but dat time. But nvm dont care only. After that played the zombie Shooting game. And theres where i used up my money which was suppose to last me end of this week. Sigh. This suxorz. Well played a while. then went back to college. waited at the couch on tenth floor. Slept there. Ahh. the satisfaction.

Then during maths class, the file dat they gave me. theres quite a few shitsznesz inside. Dayumm.. theres bookmark, and the big balloon hitting thing dat produce noise dat people use in sport stadium. Example Badminton Matches. and calender. and other stupid booklets =D.

A BookMark which i will nvr use unless i feel like throwing this at someone.



The Dumb useless Booklet dat got picture of Amber Chia. I look left right. Turn book upside down insude out round and round side by side. I still Dont find her hot. or anywhere close to pretty.




I dont understand Mandarin. This is where picture comes in handy. Always include pictures in Instructions.

Waalla....Dats the Weird Balloon thing. Unfortunately I burst the blue one cuz i wacked nadzmi wif it too hard and my other yellow one....erm my dog burst it wif her razor sharp teeth which she used to bite on my steel fingers.

Hmm. I dunno wat i wan now I dunno wat i'm doing. Maybe i just really have to move on. did our story just ended just like dat? Is there really no chance at all. She replys coldly. She now thinks, maybe each time she msges me, i'll think i'll have a chance wif her. I dun wanna think this way anymore. Just see how things goes. Shes happier now i can see. Moved on. Thats wat i see. Rite now, i'll jsut be there for her. Probably she might think shes wasting my time. She always thinks this way. Shes not. Shes not. She was having stress last night. Msged me But i couldnt reply. I wasnt there for her. hmm. In the end some dude called her. made her feel okay again. Well...shes okay now. Her fren talked to her. Made her better. Me? i cant do shits. All i do is bring problem and trouble. shes moved on.

Tuesday

Well, can start off by saying wat i did on saturday. Since Clubbing was cancelled. Called Weng kit up, lets go taman mayang. But how long i've known him, he'll come fashionable late. So called up kevin, told him i need to have some drinking session. So went over to his house, picked him up then we off to the houses near ac. yeap. We were quite cashless so all we could buy is 2 cans of carlsberg that taste like sparkling water. So we were sitting near the houses there sitting on the bench. Looking towards SJMC. Yes its directly opposite in front of us. Emo-ing session. Lawls. I miss those drinking sessions. Haih. I think probably my next BIG drinking session would be around october or november or december. Thats when kea leng, tristo, and ian is coming back. Yes lah. Cant wait. But its so long more. Dayum. Lawlz. Then later weng kit came. He said i was high. hahah. I'm jsut hyper. Happy to see my frens with me when i'm down. So i was just being me. Talknig crap and all. Then we went off to taman mayang. Nope we didnt race there this time. Haha. I had to pick up Benji. I still remember, me, hann and wengkit always race at nite. Haha. We'll stop at every traffic light next to each other car and wind down our window and start throwing rubbish into each other's car through the window. haha.. Good times. Well now, Hann is really busy. Seldom go out. Weng kit. hes in SOME island right this moment smoking his weed. Jia wei, still hanging out wif him no difference.Lawlz. Min ern, our cyber session XD. Ahh basically everybodys been busy.=/.

And i've been really stressed up. Feeling dat maybe studying isnt for me. I didnt do well for physics test today. I have no idea wat crap did i wrote on the piece of paper. Haha.

Thursday is a holiday i think. Installation of the agung thing. Hu wans to follow me attend this installation? Come on guys, be patriotic. Thats wat i learn in NS =D.

Today, was sitting the steps of my college. Stoning. Was thinking back. How did i get together wif her? Its quite unexpected. I remember i fetch her to her prom. Fetched her and her best fren, eve. It was raining dat day. Couldnt find the her school prom. Had to called up Sean to tell me where is it. I remember i couldnt drive properly dat time. Too nervous. haha. My palms were sweaty. I don't know y. Nearly lost control of the car. Haha. New year eve, Called her wished her happy new year. Didnt noe y i called. suddenly took my phone and dialed her number. Called her when i was outside kea leng's house in tropicana. Before we started our major drinking drunking session. Lawlz. Really unexpected. it all happen so fast. And now,

Once more I'll say goodbye to u
Things happen,
but we don't really know y
If its supposed to be like this
Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss?